† Virulent Artificer †

Daellaryn Zaram.
Crystal | Balmung | EST.

oh, bless my heart,
when the wolves take me away

don't fall apart,
when i come back from the grave

forget my charms,
i'll never be the same.

we've come so far,
only to go insane.

play guide.

leave me in the dark,
leave me with these things.

rules.

ooc.

Hi, hello! I'm 30+, married and have been RPing for over 20 years.Large crowds and new people make me anxious but I absolutely love walkups!

tell me that you love me,

i know all your talk is cheap.

baby i'm a code mistake,
i was never meant to be

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dossier.

i'm not your monkey.

  nickname.    dae.
  age.    25, he claims.
  race.    elezen.
  birthday / nameday.     october 26th.
  astrological sign.     scorpio.
  gender.     male.
  pronouns.     he/him.
  sexuality.     omnisexual, masculine leaning.

  height.     6'1.
  weight.     149 ponzes.
  build.    lean and wiry. sickly as of late.
  hair color.     blonde.
  eye color.     chartreuse green.
  skin tone.     sandy.
  notable features.     his complexion is dusted with a smattering of freckles. many claim his eyes are his most striking feature.

  job occupation.    bar manager | lotus agent | toxic alchemist | mascot | xy's boyfriend
  place of origin.     unknown.
  home.    currently residing within Wysteria with a workshop in the Thanalan area.
  family.     none living.
  marital status.     not interested.
  playlist.   ♫♪♫
  pinterest.   if you're into that.
  face & voice reference.   lee felix yongbok.

  d&d alignment.     chaotic neutral.
  mbti.     intp-t.
  likes.     playing guitar. drinking. storms. moko. pole dancing. strong basslines. subtly.
  dislikes.     deserts. vegetables. gin. creme brulee. unsolicited advice. emotional vulnerability.
  virtues.     loyal. resilient. observant. adaptable. decisive. calm under pressure.
  flaws.     paranoid. greedy. acedia. self-destructive. guarded. cynical. pessimistic. haunted by duality.

i'm not your puppet.

  synopsis.   Loyal to a fault, he protects those he loves fiercely, even if he struggles to express his needs or emotions openly. He meets each day with a weary determination, balancing the weight of his past with a stubborn desire to protect his chosen family and carve out a life where he can finally feel safe.Now toeing the line between realities, he's been left struggling to maintain two variations of himself. The bulk he gained over the summer months has fully dwindled, regardless of how much he intakes, now appearing sickly and frail. Boney. Gaunt. Unpleasant in so many ways but purposeful in a bid for power that's brought him teetering on the brink of withering away and losing it all. The question now is 'was it worth it'?The man who despises gambling...ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤㅤholds one hell of a hand.

headcanon one. Dae suffers from absence seizures which lead to some really wild, vivid hallucinations that play into his paranoia.
headcanon two. When left to his own devices, he is most likely playing his guitar, enough so that callouses often dot his fingers.
headcanon three.He thoroughly believes he will meet his end in a desert and is most comfortable when around bodies of water or caught in the middle of a storm. Sometimes, when he walks alone under a hot sun or catches the faint scent of scorched earth, his stomach knots, and he wonders if the sands are already reaching for him.
headcanon four. He is not from this star. This makes language difficult at times and has set him back years in his profession. He's getting there, one wrong innuendo at a time. Even now, his accent slips through when he's tired or flustered, and certain idioms still make no sense to him.
headcanon five. He has silent coping mechanisms for when he’s overwhelmed—he’ll knead his fingers against whatever is near, or fidget with the edges of his sleeves. When stuck in his own head, Dae can often be seen twisting one of his rings. It's the same one every time; smaller, thinner and unmatching in color to the others.
headcanon six. Dae doesn’t know how to react when people fuss over him. He gets awkward and deflects with sarcasm or a joke, but deep down, it means everything to him—especially because he grew up without it.

.

i'm just a fleabag.

i wanna turn back time.

i wanna fix the way i was designed.

crawl behind my eyes
and kill my stale state of mind.

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hooks.

who the hell have i become?

hook one. You've been in or around Wysteria or have heard rumors of the friendly vice peddler often found behind the bar there.hook two. If you're in need of anything of an alchemical nature, perhaps you've heard about his workshop?hook three. Along with his workshop, Dae dabbles in growing his own moko strains and has begun creating his own hallucinogens once again. Maybe you've tried them? Maybe you want to?

more coming soon.

hook four. Having worked in numerous brothels and clubs, it's entirely possible his face is a familiar one.hook five. Information has a price, as does his blade. Depending on circumstances, he may be bought as a mercenary or informant. Who else he shares that information with, however...hook six. I don't know, I'm bad at these. Just walk up! ♥

DM me if you'd like to set up any sort of pre-existing relationship. ♥

counting hours in between my doses?

a jaded man with shaky hands,

holding on to what he can't let go of.
and now, i'm terrified.

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bonds.

devil on both shoulders,
baby i ain't got no angel

Zalaena Cloudsworn

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little sister
deceased

  summary.   Her death left a hollow ache he doesn't know how to fill, a silence more brutal than any wound. He doesn’t speak of her often, not because he’s forgotten, but because the grief is too sacred, too raw. Everything he does now—every risk taken, every secret kept—is a small vow to her memory: a promise that he will endure, survive, and protect the ones she can no longer reach.

Sophie
Saint-Saens

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chosen sister

  summary.   Time and time again, she has unknowingly lifted his head just enough above water that he could catch his breath again. He believes her to be the only truly good person in his life and cherishes her beyond words. Dae has killed in her name and would not hesitate to do so again.ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ ㅤ Tu m'as sauvé.

Harper
Delacroix

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best friend

  summary.   The strength of their relationship has ebbed and flowed over the past two years but the bond has always remained. Her faith in him has been the sole driving factor against his own listlessness and defeatist attitude. There likely isn't a thing on this star she could ask of him that he would refuse. The time surfing with her has been a light in his dark.

Arken
Rennatta

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baby girl

  summary.     Dae was certain the man had a permenant stick up his ass upon meeting him. Over time, he's learned first impressions aren't always meant to be written in stone. Few know more about his past than Arken, even as little as it may be and Dae values his opinion and advice above all others.If he would...
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ apply...
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤthat wisdom...

Xyphris
Zeddicus

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boyfriend

  summary.     In the beginning, he was little more than just a name but as time has gone on, he's grown to appreciate his presence and the calmness it stirs in his mind. One of the very few whose touch doesn't make him want to crawl out of his own skin and he makes Dae feel a little bit more secure within himself. If Dae's lost, this man is his compass.On the other hand... Xyphris has seemed to make it a personal goal to torment Dae and he cannot fathom why. A blatant duality.It hurts his brain.
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ Not that he's complaining.

Tristel
Litnes

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friend

  summary.     The man responsible for the majority of ink on Dae's body. A good friend with a keen ear, one that never hesitates to pull him out of whatever mental turmoil he has brewing at the time, often helping him turn that lunacy into something productive.

Kol
Aska

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friend

  summary.     Usually thinking himself on the same wavelength as Kol in all things security and subterfuge, he trusts the man fully in keeping those around them safe and secure. Dae becomes a lot less closed off around the Veena, spilling whatever is on his mind and is ecstatic to have him back in his life.

Lilah
Rivers

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friend

  summary.   Dae was immediately drawn to Lilah with an inexplicable urge to protect her, be it from creepy men or simply making sure she had clean pants. As time crawls on, she's helping him overcome a learned bias that a soft face and voice doesn't always mean someone is incapable. That said, his hand will always be there for her when she needs it.

Fox
Kurai

• Carrd

friend

  summary.   A gremlin. A demon. An absolute maniac; and yet there's a comfort in her chaos.Because of this, Fox has quickly become his favorite person to turn to for any and all half-brain ideas that come to him, whether that be a cheese ball grenade launcher or life-saving treatments that keep him from withering and everything in between. Tristel subdues his mania. Fox helps him thrive in it, for better or worse and he's laid his life in her hands.

Riley
Zeddicus

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friend

  summary.   History simmers between them though neither seem readily willing to speak openly on it around their comrades. Some days it's like gazing into some weird, fucked up mirror. Other times he finds himself wanting to wring her neck, bickering like an old married couple. Don't say that to either of them though, unless you've brought a sickbag.

The
Almasi's

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friends

  summary.   Dae shares a warm, easy camaraderie with the siblings. Lavender intrigues him with her sharp mind and unapologetic ambition—he enjoys her company, even with the subtle scheming. Caeden, for his part, never fails to make Dae laugh with the casual flirtation and he wears the title of 'Second Favorite Twink' with pride. Though his interactions with The Almasi's are often playful or business-adjacent, Dae treasures both of them—not just as patrons but as trusted fixtures in his life.

Tristan
Solianteaux

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friend

  summary.   There's an unspoken respect there. One that bloomed long ago when Dae witnessed the man voice his opinion, full-chested, time and time again. Never afraid to speak his mind, Dae admires him. After opening the doors of his home to Dae during a time of need, he has made it a personal goal to get closer to the captain. There's still so much he's yet to see.

Mercer

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trauma buddy

  summary.   Altered by forces beyond their control, they get each other in a way few others can, even if they don't talk about it often. They aren't particularly close but there's a quiet trust between them—just two people walking parallel paths, occasionally crossing and each carrying their own burdens with a similar kind of silence.

Fiver Nimh

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friend?
friend.

  summary.   Dae's relationship with Fiver is friendly but complicated. He knows the viera means well and doesn't mind his company but the man seems intent on pushing Dae's boundaries at times. He keeps a cautious distance emotionally, laughing things off while quietly hoping Fiver won’t push too far. The ravine can only fit so many bodies, after all.

dress up how you want,
you can't turn horns into a halo

blaming, pointing fingers,
but it takes two to tango

if i'm being honest,
i got what i wanted.

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gallery.

photos .

from friends :
(◕‿◕✿) :

oldies but goodies .

here am i,

take me to the pearly gates.

so i can look you in the eye,
when i spit in your face.

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